MISSING...

HAPPINESS... HAVE YOU SEEN IT?

CAN ANYONE PLEASE HELP ME FIND MY HAPPINESS, I BELIEVE THE LAST TIME I SEEN IT WAS SOMEWHERE BETWEEN HERE AND THERE.

I DEEPLY MISS IT AND WILL DO ANYTHING TO GET IT BACK.

My Class Mates!

My Class mates on Pharmacy Teachican Day!!!!!!! WE RULE

Drug Interactions Leads to Death

It’s amazing how someone’s miss-fortune could lead to another’s way of life. Because of my mothers choices in life that she had to make, life changed dramatically for her. She ended up having a couple massive strokes and kidney failure that has left her grounded to machines and the dependence of other’s to help her for the rest of her life.
For me her experience has also changed my life for good and bad. One thing that is good that has come out of it was me finding a career as a Pharmacy Technician. That will allow me to help and change others life, but also a career that can damage lifes if you are not careful. The sad thing is when most people think about their experience in a hospital they only remember the nurses and doctors. No one thinks about the person who was responsible for making or taking the order for the medication that helped saved their life. They only remember the bad, like the doctor who was to busy to take real time with the patient to know what they truly need or can not have.
Doctors are all the time in to big of hurry to move on to the next patient that mistakes are made that can not be fixed. Example of this is when people end up dieing from interactions of other prescription drugs or overdosing them in the same type of medications. Luckily for my mom we had to have test done that later provided us with the information that the doctor’s where overdosing here with Tylenol and it was quickly destroying her liver. She was one of the luckier ones not like the many other that have died.
There has even been studies that have shown that more people are killed from prescription drugs each year then people that are killed in traffic accidents. That study has even stated that more then 2 million Americans have suffered a serious adverse drug reaction within 12 month period that has been hospitalized. Over 100,000 have died as a result, and that does not include fatal reactions caused by accidental overdoses or errors. In 1999 alone it was reported that at least 120, 000 deaths was by accidental deaths caused by physicians per year.
The FDA are also to blame for this just as much as doctors. The FDA cut time allowed for drug approvals, which cuts time allowed for these drugs to be tested properly. Without a proper monitoring system it makes it take longer to discover what drugs could be causing problems. Example of this in my opinion would be the Viagra. The FDA approved it a regionally for heart conditions, but later found that one of the side effects would later lead to even more heart problem. So now the drug is still on the market but used only for what the side effect caused, then caution them to limit the use and not to take the medication if the person has or had a heart condition.
Its weird to think about how many people who have died from prescription errors or overdose. But I am thankful because it helps me to be more cautious be for I take any type of medication or before I allow my mother to take hers. But like I have said before there has been plenty who where so not lucky like: Christopher Bowman who was an ice skater, Chad Butler rapper, Teri Diver a porn star, Rory Gallagher a rock guitarist, David Ruffin who was in the band Temptations, and even the most recent death that hurt the nation was Heath Ledger.

Today Woman

Today’s women are strong and depended. They are doing things today that were never allowed or even dreamed of before. But as a whole are women doing anything to change the ways women will be affected and viewed in the future, like women in the past have done for us. These women have made big and small changes on the way we live our lifes. If it wasn’t for them taking the extra mile for change our lives today would be extremely different. We owe a lot to these women, and a huge thanks.
For an example women are allowed to write, run for office, vote, go to the moon, have a voice for themselves, and beyond other possibilities. I’m talking about women like Harriet Quimby, and many others!
Harriet Quimby was born in a small town in Michigan became a talented writer, photographer, actor and world traveler. She was even the first woman in United States to receive a pilots license, and the first woman to fly the English Channel on April 16th, 1912. Which did not receive much attention at the time, because the sinking of the titanic on April 15th. She was a career woman ahead of her time. She apparently never married or even had children before she died. Even though she only live to be 37, she had a major impact on women’s roles in aviation.

Ungratefullnes

It makes me sick to think about how this nation as a whole has become greedy and non thankful. What ever happened to being grateful for what you have and not dwell on the things you don’t have.
You have Children, screaming at their mothers that they want that toy, now. Just to go home and listen to them complain about the fact that they have to eat the same thing again. Or that they don’t have what this or that kid has. Woman complaining that this week they can't afford to buy those new shoes, or designer cloths, that they had to work and get dirty. Or that they can't go out and party with their friends. Men complaining, well just about everything to be honest! Then you've got people who are suing everyone and everything just because they can. Like the people that sue McDonald's, for making them fat, or suing the doctor because you came to the clinic to late to receive your 10Th abortion. Forget the fact that she is a very fertile woman that can make other woman happy. Like ones who can not conceive on their own. Instead it will ruin her if she has to be pregnant, so she wanted them to pay for her mistake.
I understand that in our hectic, fast-paced lives, it's easy to forget about the many things for which we have to be grateful. We tend to be goal seeking, achievement- oriented-people, and there's nothing wrong with that. But it's important that we not lose sight of the things that are near and dear. Things we all take for granted. Like friends, health, family, life, and second chances.
I've been told my whole life that if you learn to appreciate more of what you already have, then you'll find that you'll have more to appreciate.

Don't take me the wrong way I know that there are people out there who are grateful and try to help others in times of need or just to help. And that there are people who stop to smell the trees and appreciate the fact those trees are there to help us survive. Instead of seeing them as a new gateway for entertainment like a new shopping mall, and that the can use those trees for the money to spend in that shopping mall.
I guess in a way what I am trying to say is that we are wealthier then previous generations, we end up consuming more and experiencing more then ever before, but we still are so unhappy and ungrateful at the end of the day. But searching for a fulfilling life will be a journey of trial and error. So lets look at this as a mirror of our faults and try to make a better path to tomorrow.

Jiminy Cricket !!

Jiminy Cricket, where are you? The world is in desperate need of a conscience! Today’s society does not care about the consequence of their actions, and the kind of suffering that it might bring to themselves or others. Every one seems to be only out for themselves no matter the consequence. Where, when, why, and how did we get to this point?
Is it really worth it in the end to lie, steal, and cheat just to get ahead or to make yourself look better? I’m sick of feeling that I can’t even trust the people that are close to me anymore. Everyday I witness people choosing to do and act this way, but for what? So that people will like them, accept them, trust them? If you have to do something that is not you then why do it?
My sister of all people I see doing this everyday with her friends or even with people she doesn’t even know. She got caught lying and stealing from a woman that cares deeply for her, even still after she finds out the truth. But my sister still feels like she has to do these things to feel better about herself, or even to get people that does not care about her at all to like her. But how in the world would that make some one feel better, with that eating at you. Or does it? Are these people even worth the hurt that you would be causing? Have we as a whole just stop feeling and caring? God I hope not. Jiminy, are you starting to get why we need you?
I know that I’m no angel, and I have done my own wrongs in the past and maybe even more in the future. But I don’t go to the extremes that other people go to daily. You have president candidates tearing the other apart to make themselves look good. It feels like all they are out for is personal gain.
People shooting people because they don’t like them, some one stepped on their turf, or they don’t like the others race. Why does that even matter, to take another live for your own gain. Son’s trying to burn their mother and the house down, because he was unhappy. Seriously did I step into another domination or something. It goes on and on like this!
Relationship’s are even to the point that they are just jokes. Jiminy do you remember when a person said I do, they meant I do? I can’t, I’ve tried but it feels like that’s been centuries ago. People are just up and getting married not even knowing each other, cheating on each other, walking out on their families. I can understand if they was a good reason, but there’s not. People are doing it anymore just because they can. You even have mothers leaving the children just as much as fathers any more. Regardless of how it will affect anyone else.
The list will go on and on if I don’t stop myself here Jiminy! But I really do wish that you’ll come back and help me try to straighten things out. I feel that maybe, just maybe if people see that your back, that they might start to listen! Well I’m off now, I really do hope to hear back from you soon.

OMG

OK IM GOING TO SCHOOL TO TRAIN TO BE A PHARMACY TECHNICAN, AT EVEREST INST. I ONLY HAVE 15 SCHOOL DAYS LEFT, WHICH IS AWSOME! I HAVE MANAGED TO KEEP HONOR ROLL THE WHOLE TIME BESIDES MY SECOND MOD THERE AND THAT WAS ONLY BECAUSE WE GOT A NEW TEACHER WHO HAS NO IDEA WHAT SHE WAS DOING. BUT I ONLY MISSED RECIEVING IT BY 0.5 WHICH REALLY SUCKED.

BUT WHEN IM FINISHED I'M PLANNING ON MOVING BACK TO INDIANA WHERE I GREW UP MOST OF MY LIFE. BUT I FOUND OUT THAT YOU CAN NOT WORK THERE AT ALL UNLESS YOU ARE CERTIFED. IN MICHIGAN WHERE I LIVE NOW YOU FINISH SCHOOL AND HAVE UP TO A YEAR, HELL THERE ARE PEOPLE WHO NEVER WENT TO SCHOOL AND GET TO WORK FOR PLACES LIKE WALGREENS SO NOT FAIR.

SO WE CALLED THE STATE OF INDIANA AND THEY HAD A MEETING THIS MONTH TO DISCUSS WEATHER OR NOT THAT THEY BELIEVE THE SCHOOL MEETS THEIR REQUIREMENTS FOR CERTIFCATION. AND WE DID SO NOW WHEN I AM FINISHED I HAVE NOTHING HOLDING ME BACK.

WELL THERE IS MY BOYFRIEND OF THREE YEARS THAT IS SET ON NOT LEAVING. HOPEFULLY HE WILL SEE HOW MUCH THIS MEANS TO ME AND COMES WITH ME.

CROSS YOUR FINGERS AND WISH ME LUCK, IM GOING TO NEED IT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Bitch Fest

OK IM SORRY BUT DOES ANYONE EVER STOP TO THINK ABOUT HOW I FEEL ABOUT EVERYTHING THAT IS GOING ON.
OR THAT MAYBE JUST MAYBE THE ATTITUDE THAT I HAVE IS FROM THE WAY YOU COME AT ME?
MAYBE I WOULDNT SOUND SO BITCHY IF YOU JUST GET OFF MY BACK AND LET ME BREATH.
NOTHING I DO WILL EVER BE GOOD ENOUGH, ALL YOU EVER WANT TO SEE IS THE BAD.
IM A GREAT PERSON I HAVE FEELINGS JUST LIKE EVERYONE ELSE.
I'VE BEEN WORKING ON THE WAY I COME ACROSS TO OTHERS!
OTHER PEOPLE CAN SEE SO WHY CANT YOU!
HOW CAN I BE BETTER, IF YOU KEEP TRYING TO PULL ME UNDER?

Who do you see?

When you look in a mirror, do you know the person looking back at you? Are you happy to see that person, or is it like an old rerun. That you just can not get away from no matter how hard you try? For me, I wish that I could look in the mirror and love the person looking back. To know that in the end, everything will be ok. I don't even know when I lost tract of the person who is my reflection, but I know that I do not know this person, or what they plan to do. What happened to me, where did you put the real reflection that I seek, but I get no answer. Cold and lonely I stand there waiting for the real person to return, I start to wonder if this mirror is broken. Is there a button that I could push, or even a lever? I press against the mirror hoping that I can step inside like Alice with Wonderland, but I smack my face instead.
At this point you're probably thinking I need some major help, and your right! I do need help, I've tried everything that I could think of but I'm still coming up short in my search for the real me. I have posted a missing sign, put a search and rescue ad in the paper, talked to Jesus, well at least the red head said his name was Jesus, but I'm not too sure he was, now that I think about it. Anyways I don't know what else to do. The local police station told me I'm off my rocker if I believe that they are going to put and Amber Alert out for my-self. What ever happened to good will towards all men? Oh yea I'm not a man! I even tried to have a dog sniff her out, but it just kept staring at me and barking.
Maybe if I just wait here, things will step back into place and everything will be as it should. Then again, how can I expect things to change or be the way they are suppose to if I don't do anything?
When it feels like the world is on your shoulders and there are no good Ending, when do we stop searching for the person that doesn't exist anymore and let go. Do we ever truly let go? I don't know if we can, as long as we have the "what if" in our vocabulary. So I guess its time to try one last time, to get to the other side of that mirror.
I know that things will never be the same, and that I need to look for a brighter day, but its going to be one long bumpy ride. Hopefully when its all over I will be able to recognize that person, and realize that it's the person that I'm suppose to be. And not the person that I thought was me.
I always wondered what it was that could make a person feel so alone in a crowded room, in my own opinion I believe that we are the reason. As I write this, I'm starting to believe that we truly are our own worst enemy in so many ways. But until then, my mirror will remain showing the wrong reflection! So I guess instead of watching that rerun, I will go watch the rerun of my favorite show that is on right now.