When you look in a mirror, do you know the person looking back at you? Are you happy to see that person, or is it like an old rerun. That you just can not get away from no matter how hard you try? For me, I wish that I could look in the mirror and love the person looking back. To know that in the end, everything will be ok. I don't even know when I lost tract of the person who is my reflection, but I know that I do not know this person, or what they plan to do. What happened to me, where did you put the real reflection that I seek, but I get no answer. Cold and lonely I stand there waiting for the real person to return, I start to wonder if this mirror is broken. Is there a button that I could push, or even a lever? I press against the mirror hoping that I can step inside like Alice with Wonderland, but I smack my face instead.
At this point you're probably thinking I need some major help, and your right! I do need help, I've tried everything that I could think of but I'm still coming up short in my search for the real me. I have posted a missing sign, put a search and rescue ad in the paper, talked to Jesus, well at least the red head said his name was Jesus, but I'm not too sure he was, now that I think about it. Anyways I don't know what else to do. The local police station told me I'm off my rocker if I believe that they are going to put and Amber Alert out for my-self. What ever happened to good will towards all men? Oh yea I'm not a man! I even tried to have a dog sniff her out, but it just kept staring at me and barking.
Maybe if I just wait here, things will step back into place and everything will be as it should. Then again, how can I expect things to change or be the way they are suppose to if I don't do anything?
When it feels like the world is on your shoulders and there are no good Ending, when do we stop searching for the person that doesn't exist anymore and let go. Do we ever truly let go? I don't know if we can, as long as we have the "what if" in our vocabulary. So I guess its time to try one last time, to get to the other side of that mirror.
I know that things will never be the same, and that I need to look for a brighter day, but its going to be one long bumpy ride. Hopefully when its all over I will be able to recognize that person, and realize that it's the person that I'm suppose to be. And not the person that I thought was me.
I always wondered what it was that could make a person feel so alone in a crowded room, in my own opinion I believe that we are the reason. As I write this, I'm starting to believe that we truly are our own worst enemy in so many ways. But until then, my mirror will remain showing the wrong reflection! So I guess instead of watching that rerun, I will go watch the rerun of my favorite show that is on right now.
At this point you're probably thinking I need some major help, and your right! I do need help, I've tried everything that I could think of but I'm still coming up short in my search for the real me. I have posted a missing sign, put a search and rescue ad in the paper, talked to Jesus, well at least the red head said his name was Jesus, but I'm not too sure he was, now that I think about it. Anyways I don't know what else to do. The local police station told me I'm off my rocker if I believe that they are going to put and Amber Alert out for my-self. What ever happened to good will towards all men? Oh yea I'm not a man! I even tried to have a dog sniff her out, but it just kept staring at me and barking.
Maybe if I just wait here, things will step back into place and everything will be as it should. Then again, how can I expect things to change or be the way they are suppose to if I don't do anything?
When it feels like the world is on your shoulders and there are no good Ending, when do we stop searching for the person that doesn't exist anymore and let go. Do we ever truly let go? I don't know if we can, as long as we have the "what if" in our vocabulary. So I guess its time to try one last time, to get to the other side of that mirror.
I know that things will never be the same, and that I need to look for a brighter day, but its going to be one long bumpy ride. Hopefully when its all over I will be able to recognize that person, and realize that it's the person that I'm suppose to be. And not the person that I thought was me.
I always wondered what it was that could make a person feel so alone in a crowded room, in my own opinion I believe that we are the reason. As I write this, I'm starting to believe that we truly are our own worst enemy in so many ways. But until then, my mirror will remain showing the wrong reflection! So I guess instead of watching that rerun, I will go watch the rerun of my favorite show that is on right now.
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